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In this issue:
1. Good news – we won!
2. Arab woman, Wafa Sultan, speaks up on National TV, Al Jezeera!
3. 2 Dialogs continued from my previous newsletter
4. Tip of the month
5. 20/20 saga continues…
6. Apprenticeship Training update
7. My schedule update
8. My radio interview on 12/2, 2pm EST
9. One good reason we need to learn how to procreate naturally…
10. Obama’s invitation to share ideas
11. Good all American turkey… tradition vs common sense
12. vote – should I remove the c-section scene from my film or keep it?
13. On a personal note :)
14. List of referrals
15. International version update— Polish Version out now!
16. Appeal to Representatives to keep Birth Centers
Hello Beautiful People!
Congratulations! The end of the world has been cancelled!!!
We won. We can relax now.
And I am not talking about the election, though this magnificent election does reflect the general shift in the mass mentality. (It always does. Same happened when G.W. Bush became a president - it reflected the mental state of the country, as a whole). The Reality is never wrong. It just is what it is. If we don’t like it, we can argue with it and waist a lot of our life force or we can just wake up from a bad dream and learn the skills to manifest a nicer one. So we did!
But now I am talking about the bigger picture – ‘the end of days’ prophecies. We, the people, get to stay! The big war is over. Though the 3D world still needs to catch up with this fact, as it is much slower and it has inertia – some people are still fighting, completely unaware of the new order… But they, too, will get it sooner or later. Let’s be patient.
And how do I know that the end of the world is cancelled? Well, prophecies are nice and old, but I got it from the most reliable source of all – newborns. Toddlers. Anyone who looked into their eyes lately, with the intent to get it, can receive this message. Just look at them! They would not be coming here if it’s all over! They did not come here to die. They came to this planet to enjoy being alive, - to clean up this mess and have fun. This new generation is amazing – brilliant, strong, deeply connected. All we need to do is to give them a proper welcome! This is what our work is about!
I am very happy to share that my film became a handy tool in this process of us becoming the new people. I have a huge amount of letters from people who bought a copy and after watching it, decided to make sure that their friends and family get this information, too, and now they are holding monthly/bimonthly screenings in their own homes. Wonderful! It works!
Absolutely astonishing: WATCH THIS BEFORE IT'S TAKEN OFF THE WEB:
It is extremely surprising that the Arab financed TV in Dubai would allow this to air. Be sure and watch this, it is so powerful I have no doubt she now has a very large price on her head. I also have no doubt it won't be on the air long.
She is one impressive woman. Here is a powerful and amazing statement on Al Jezeera television. The woman is Wafa Sultan, an Arab-American psychologist from Los Angeles. I would suggest watching it ASAP because I don't know how long the link will be active. This film clip should be shown around the world repeatedly!
On Al Jezeera television is Wafa Sultan, an Arab-American psychologist:
I take my hat off! This woman is living her truth in a big way!
My conversation with Emily continues RE: emergency contraceptives:
(you can find the previous exchange in the October issue)
I see what you are saying… I just don’t want to get on the band wagon of determining who is fit and who is unfit mother. I reject any notion of giving a government any power to determine who is unfit to become a parent. I don't want to be part of talking women into abortions - the blood would be on my hands.
Elena, keep encouraging women about beautiful birth. Young girls, even boys, need to see how beautiful it can be. What you do does a lot to make these babies "wanted." You help us see the "gift" of birth.
there is absolutely no invitation to be the determining factor about who is fit and who is unfit. Where did that come from? Allowing women to choose doesn't mean forcing them to terminate their pregnancy or 'talk them into it'. Not prohibiting it for those who desire it with a passion and will do it anyway, illegally, in anti sanitary conditions, mostly themselves, - is a far reach from taking on determining who should be doing it.
It would be very educational to know the yearly death toll from self administered abortions in those states where it is prohibited. It's a silent war going on - young girls killing themselves accidentally trying to secretly get rid of their babies in guilt and shame, and don't have anywhere to turn to for help (in the best case scenario – injuring themselves badly). The state that didn't make an effort to educate them, to take care of their needs, is in a position of ultimate power of punishing them for their 'mistakes'. Which means exactly what you are trying to avoid - those states took upon themselves the righteous role of being the determining power to force women into doing what they hate - into giving birth, making these women victims of the state.
And there is also another side to this issue - in one's concern for the sacredness of life, if one would know that a woman is pregnant with a 'Hitler' or a 'Stalin', who would kill millions of people, what would be the right moral decision here? To spare that one life or spare those millions?
Because we do know what the common denominator is between all of the stalins, saddam huseins, hitlers and jack-the-rippers: the mothers who did not want them, did not care to protect them and meet their needs. These mothers did not know how to take care of their own needs either; they never had anyone in their lives to role model it for them. It’s not out of conscious decision that they’ve neglected their children! They just did not know how to be good mothers, because they themselves were born to women who did not want them... And the circle goes round-n-round... Multiplying misery is not a virtue! Yes, it was mostly men who were daily beating those little boys who later became rapists and killers, but who gave birth to those big men? Who did not provide their safety when they were little?
At some point it has to stop. Ladies, the time is NOW! It’s really up to us! WE have to roll up our sleeves and start making new people without compromising their dignity and setting them up for a big drama. We have to stop being victims and indulge in our helplessness. The sacredness of life is every newborn’s primal experience. That is the only thing they know. It is our responsibility to help them remember it and not to disconnect from their bodies due to traumatic introduction to our world. But sacredness of life can not be forced by the law. It can only be patiently honored.
It seems like the surest solution to end all wars and violent crime on this planet is to take good care of pregnant women! We as a society have the power to provide the safety and nourishment for women during pregnancy and early childhood, for the next generation to be born without the need to inflict pain or be victimized. It would only take a fraction of the money that is being invested now into 'war on drugs' or 'war in the name of God'. We already know that it is a form of addiction - the need to be victimized or a need to inflict pain - and it is formed during the early childhood, starting with conception. It is an addiction that most governments of the world exploit to generate soldiers and slaves. If babies are limbically imprinted for suffering, it’s the surest way of creating a submissive population. People who put the words “And women should suffer in birth” into the current translation of the Bible probably knew this. Because these words are not in the original tablets - they were added only a few centuries ago by people who knew that this mechanism works perfectly well on animals to domesticate them – elephants, camels, horses... They did not have fancy psychological terms for it, like ‘limbic imprint’, - but how hard would it be to figure out that it works just the same on people? If a man is not programmed on fear and pain, he can not go and kill his own kind. In nature, species don’t kill their own.
Of course, in the short format of this letter, I am over-simplifying the whole picture. Life is much more complex and every rule has exceptions. But still, that’s the general dynamic and I wish we, the women, would wake up from our hypnotic slumber. The way I see it, the most dangerous weapon on this planet at this point is a Frustrated Woman. Generations after generations, after generations of frustrated women not providing their kids with safety and care. All of the man-made weapons, enough to blow up our beautiful planet 300 times, - is a reflection and equivalent of the cumulative destructive power of angry, disoriented women who gave away their creative life force and did not raise the children to be compassionate, intelligent and kind. So the boys had to make really big guns to feel some degree of safety…
About women being the most dangerous weapon – of course it’s exaggerated, but it IS my opinion that women are a huge power and any big power could be turned both ways. So far there is too much fighting on this planet, so it means that power is not optimized. I know how much distraction I can cause if I act out my frustration. I could be effectively dropped on a small town and no need to build a bomb. I am joking know, but that knowledge was not acquired theoretically. Basically, my life’s work is a result of my desire to mend the damage I’ve caused when I was not paying attention.
Women are in the business of making new people! It is the true likeliness of God - the power to create something completely new. Not just spiritually/metaphorically, or like turning a tree into paper; it’s the physical power of embodiment that women gave up on a grand scale. I wish I could talk about it without getting all wound up… My passion is not always patient...
Men only deal with what was given to them in their beginning, they don't have much choice. Pregnant women are in a different league - for 9 months their body chemistry runs their electro-magnetic circuitry (and visa versa:) in a way that allows them to flip 'on' all the 'switches' they wish ‘on’ and turn 'off' what they want 'off'. It's a lucid condition of enormous potential, very specific to pregnancy, when all systems in the body are re-arranging. It's a window of opportunity that is rarely taken.
Yes, it was G W Bush that officially started the war in Iraq. But after I read his mother’s memoirs “How to Raise a President” I can not even be upset with him any more. The poor guy never had a chance! His ability to think for himself, to become his own person, was systematically removed out of his nervous system by his mom. Abuse doesn’t always come as neglect and bruises, it also comes in a well-mannered and well-dressed disguise of total mind control. My heart goes out to all of those children – billions of them – who did not have the sweet tenderness of mother’s safe embrace…
If only we could help women to know themselves, to recognize the enormous power that they posses through their ability to create a new person, if only we would take care of our young properly,- just for one generation - there will be no more need in discussion about abortions at all, it would become a non-issue, as it should be. Nobody would have to be 'forced' into giving birth!
In good conditions most women naturally want to have babies. Women only want to get rid of their children when their own lives are threatened by it one way or the other, mostly when life is stressful beyond their capacity to handle that stress level. And in that case they need the right to choose what to do without being pushed even further into their despair by the state law.
Still, the main question for me personally is why does the state have a need to tell these women that their life is less important then the life of their future babies? Something is very strange about it… When I told my friends in Russia that Americans have abortions on the political agenda, they thought I surely was joking. Took me an effort to make them believe I was not.
And what about those women who consciously make a decision to direct their creativity to other projects then becoming a mother? That’s a legitimate choice, too! I’ve heard form a mother of 3 grown up children, all of whom have severe problems, “I wish I knew when I was young, that I did not have to have children… I feel like I’ve wasted my life on cooking, cleaning, and driving them around… I dreamed of becoming a scientist since I was a little girl and graduated as a Valedictorian, but then I got married and good by my dreams…” Well…
And then there is another one, already a mother of 5 very happy children: “I wish I could afford 20 children! I just LOVE being a mother, lo-o-ove being pregnant!”
They would have balanced each other, wouldn’t they? If each of them would have a way of doing what she wants - everyone would benefit, - we as a society would have benefited! …I’m a dreamer…
Thank you for opening this discussion. Wow! I really got going on this one, didn’t I… And especially thank you for doing it respectfully and gently. I had so many aggressive attacks on that matter that didn't leave any room for discussion, - for so many people it's a very sensitive area. Extremely refreshing to have an intelligent conversation about this issue.
Thank you. I think that you and I are saying pretty close to the same thing but in different ways. I do understand where you are coming from. A full picture is seen when we can view the many dynamics of this "issue." Regardless of the "law", women will do what they want. The work you are doing does more for the cause of “pro--life" than any law "prohibiting abortion". "Pro-life" is not just a phrase to be manipulated by a select group. I have observed a political group to be so-called "pro-life" in one area, like abortion, but ‘anti-life’ in all other areas, like food and nutrition rights and war propagation.
So I feel that all of this brings me back to myself and my calling in my heart. I found it to not be very effective to be only against something, but to transform ‘the against’ attitude into an affirmative of what it is that I would actually like to create. More good comes out of inspiring than of punishing. My intention is to support what inspires me and what adds life to living. I agree with your paragraph about tending to and taking care of pregnant women so that abortion becomes obsolete, just like I hope war becomes a non-issue and is seen as a non-entertaining, idiotic, and unproductive waste of time and energy. So let's keep supporting pregnant women - pre-pregnant women - all women - women in bloom – etc!
Your work expresses this to me. You say that everything I do matters - to me and to my young. And it matters to my family, my community and the whole world. I love the way you speak out about keeping our baby boys whole in their sexual organs - thank you. We are always making an imprint. What we do matters! Thank you. Keep up the good work!
And Ewa’s story continues:
“Dear Elena! I have some good news for you! Since you have been involved in my birth story - I just wanted to say thank you again and let you know, that our baby boy is with us (born on Oct 14th).
The c-section went very smoothly, and the medical team was very pleasant and caring and made me smile during the entire operation. It turned out that my uterus was so thin, that the c-section was actually the only way to go (it would have not managed any contractions)
So, i guess everything turned out perfect - even my birth-fear :-) And now there is only love, grace and happiness.
PS from Elena:
“Congratulations, Ewa! What a blessing that we have well trained doctors that really know how to help in the emergency situation! Bless their hearts! They save a lot of lives!
Enjoy every precious moment with your baby! They grow so fast… Welcome to Motherhood!”
Tip of the Month— Opening Discussions: Is it a good idea for a pregnant woman to watch my film if there is a C-Section episode in it?
I want to show your video to my friend who will have birth in 2 weeks. But I have some doubts like:
* although she is open to "new" things, she is not yet spiritually "oriented".
* there are births in the normal hospital shown, and I have a fear that she would somehow "panic", because she is ordered to have a c-section. I am afraid watching this part of video could affect her in a negative way, since she will realize there is just a short time "to go" and there is nothing she could do now.
So, is it better not to know all this things, since she will have a c-section soon OR you think that nevertheless she can benefit from watching it, although she doesn't have time to have a natural birth?
Thanks a LOT for you response!
“Dear Jernej! Good question!
Thank you for your active approach in this issue! I absolutely understand your concern, it is a very delicate subject. For one, without knowing your friend personally and not knowing why exactly she was ‘ordered’ to have a c-section, I have no way of predicting her reaction... She, most likely, will get upset… But there is also a good chance that afterwards she would find the strength she did not know she had and get inspired for a more active position.
It will definitely bring up a lot of unresolved issues for her, and if she has someone to help her, she can cover a lot of ground in 2 weeks. The sooner she would deal with those issues, the better it would be for her and her baby. I am sure there are a lot of practitioners in your area to reach out to, I especially recommend EFT or rebirthing sessions for such short time frame.
My general observation is such: you can not help anyone who is not open to receiving help. Either specifically from you, or, in general, about some issue that is in their ‘blind spot’, or even more general – problems with receiving.
But, having said that, I do have LOTS of letters from women who discovered my film days before their pre-scheduled elective c-sections (they wanted it without any medical indication, just because they thought it was a good thing to do - to have their baby mechanically extracted from their bodies), and after watching my film they had the same experience - described in same terms,- it's like waking up (which doesn't take much time: one moment you are asleep, and the next moment you are awake) - they snapped out of the mass hypnosis they were under - that they can not give birth.
Giving birth has nothing to do with being 'spiritual', whatever that means... any cat can give birth. A woman is adequately equipped for it by her physical constitution, by design, if you wish, - it's ok to remember this. Many women were able to recover that memory, which they disowned due to their social conditioning, and delivered naturally after all. I guess, they were ready to receive that reminder and just watching my film did it for them.
If a woman is healthy, all she needs to give birth - is to rela-a-a-ax. Basically, that’s what the preparation time is for – to learn to relax in the middle of all the drama; (which cats don’t have to deal with - our stress level!)
1) to relax mentally, consciously and unconsciously, into the notion of having this baby,
2) to relax emotionally into surrendering all the inner conflicts, fears and contradictions,
3) at the time of actual delivery – to relax physically.
As for your friend, why don't you ask her? She is the one to birth soon. Just share how you feel about wanting her to watch this film. I believe that if nothing else would come out of it, you yourself would benefit just by articulating your own feelings about the subject of birth. You are not really responsible for her. Only she is. So if she can't face watching what she is about to go through, there is, probably, not much anyone could do – the stage is set. But that’s also OK:
There are no accidents in the matters of birth and death. From my experience of 26 years working in this field, I got this very clearly. The way we come and go has something to do with our soul’s agenda. I believe it sets the stage for us in just the right manner for our spirit to evolve. We get the exact circumstances that our soul requires to master finding the way ‘home’, recovering our connection with the Source. And who is to say what is ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ experience? (The other topic is how to succeed in this recovery – it’s an ‘equal opportunity’ kind of gig, but the ‘circumstances’ are not equal… - but that is over the format of this little discussion). All we can do is do our best, and that’s exactly what everyone is doing… If this ‘best’ is not up to someone else’s standard, that’s exactly where the notion of ‘mastery’ comes in. We can’t really make anyone evolve faster then they are already evolving.
Going back to your friend, even in the hospital, she has the right to request some gentleness and consideration - not to cut the cord immediately, to keep quiet, to dim the lights and not blast the baby with sensory overload, keep the baby with her, skin to skin and breastfeed right away. Even in the hospital, she has the right to remember that it's her baby, she is now in charge of protecting this little one from harm. They both have the right to be treated appropriately. And if she will be able to fully love this baby, it will mend the trauma fast. Babies are very forgiving. They love.
It is very interesting how you called c-section hospital birth – ‘normal’. Sad, too. Here is what normal birth is:
Remember, what I said in the film – emergency c-section is not a failure! It’s a blessing that we have this help available. The main thing – the baby is alive and smiling and the healing will happen fast if the mother is smiling, too, - if she is relaxed and happy.
20/20 Saga continues... 12/12/08 ! ?
Apprenticeship training in January – 10 day intensive
As I mentioned before, I will have my first 10 day intensive - apprenticeship training in January, 15th-24th. (Very much excited about it!!!) There are still 4 spots left, so think about it… It's one of those 'healing for healers' opportunities!
The emphasis is on the alignment with the Birthing Field, which includes, first of all, healing our own birth trauma. As a result, we can have a greater capacity to hold a sacred space of birthing for others, no matter what they are giving birth to - a child or any other kind of creative project, - and what is even more important, we can stay emotionally present with our own birthing field, relaxing into the fact of owning a body, coming to terms of being alive at this time on this planet.
If I were to answer 'yes' to all invitations to travel and teach this birthshop, I'd be booked ahead for at least 5 years right now. That's why I want to teach others who might incorporate this into their own healing techniques, reaching a far greater success in what ever they are already doing.
The price for the 10 day intensive, including gourmet lunches, breakfasts, snacks and drinks - $1200.
Starts: 6pm on 1/15/09
Ends 9pm 1/24.
My Schedule Update!
December 6, 7 San Rafael, CA Birthshop
January 15-24 Chico, CA Apprenticeship training
February 26 ? March 23 Australia
March 24 ? 28 New Zealand
April 1 ? 7 Singapore
May Portland, Calgary
July San Rafael
September Brussels, London, Warsaw
My internet interview on 12/2, 2pm EST
Soul Therapy Talk-Radio
Tuesday December 2nd at 2:00pm Eastern Standard Time.
Listeners visit the TalkShoe website, www.talkshoe.com to gain access to the LIVE show by searching for "Soul Therapy Talk-Radio" or our show ID # 24814. Simply click the ‘LISTEN NOW’ button on the site or participate in the show by calling (724) 444-7444. Shows can be listened to or downloaded at a later date as well.
All other affiliate stations have the pre-recorded segment: listening through Global Talk Radio, BlogTalkRadio, NowLive, Live 365, about 10 podcast directories, iTunes, Google Music, etc.
OK, let’s talk!
One more reason we need to learn how to procreate naturally…
There is a lot of effort among people that I know, learning basic survival skills, preparing for dramatic climate change that might soon occur. People are learning how to be self-sustainable, how to find water in the wild, grow gardens, create alternative sources of energy, make fabrics out of plants… all wonderful activities!
Truth is, if the major earthquake strikes or something else that we would loose electricity for a long time, we won’t have access to the hospitals and all of the equipment with monitors will be useless, anyway.
Recovery of our basic function of procreation is one of the most important surviving skills, quite literally. Right now we, the humankind, have almost forgotten it. Around the world c-section rates are climbing up to 90%. Baby girls who were born by c-section don’t have their bodies activated for giving birth. They will require hospitals, too, unless they will find a way of recovering their ability to deliver a baby. We have to turn this around fast. And I know we can.
When I said that we, as a species, will survive the cataclysms, I didn’t mean without an effort. The world as we knew it is crumbling and we have the privilege and joyful task of creating the new one from scratch. We, the people, have already tried everything else. Let’s do now what works.
Obama’s invitation to share ideas
The official website of US President-elect Barack Obama for his transition to the White House, www.change.gov, went online on Thursday inviting users to offer their ideas for the future of the country. Under the headline of "Open Government," the website asks readers to "Share Your Vision" via email.
11) Good all American turkey… tradition vs common sense
Please send this to all your turkey gobbling friends and family! The source for Holiday Turkeys – please, watch for yourselves where it comes from and see what you are really eating
Happy guilt-free Thanksgiving!
I have a request: please, drop me a line with your vote – should I remove the c-section episode from my film or should I keep it in?
Just one word – ‘keep’ or ‘remove’. No need to explain. I know all the pros and cons - it frightens some women, but also educates and have already helped thousands to avoid the unnecessary surgery.
Here is why I’m asking, Jan wrote:
“Your film would be perfect if it showed only the positive benefits of natural birthing, without causing unnecessary guilt for moms who find themselves in need of medical intervention. I was disappointed to see the Cesarean scene. My son, born by c-section, didn't scream, he was quiet and alert - I think he was glad to have help after 20 hours of frustration.
While I wish his birth had gone more smoothly, I haven't seen any lifelong consequences. At 27, he is the calmest, brightest, and most self-assured person I have ever known. Had I watched this video when pregnant, I would have felt quite worried and guilty afterward - and for no good reason, as it turned out.
It seems inconsistent to help parents avoid trauma for their babies, and at the same time show scenes that can cause trauma for parents who have had to make other choices. In my years of counseling I've learned how much more effective it is to convince people with positive information than scaring them with frightening possibilities. I hope you'll consider a revision.
All the best, Jan”
Thank you! The only reason I’ve included the c-section episode was to help women consider not having elective surgeries without medical indication. The great majority of all c-sections are done without any need for it. Just because women don't know what it does to them and to the baby.
And I made a big effort after that scene to explain that the mother's love will neutralize the trauma from the real emergency afterwards. Your son is a perfect example how TLC in action really does it. When it's an emergency, the baby takes it as a life saving and assuring imprint, that "help will come when needed".
But most of the babies born to c-section do not have that privilege, unfortunately... It is for them that I have included this part in the film.
I had 4 letters now with similar to yours reaction to the c-section episode and 2 raging letters about circumcision scene. I have thousands of letters of gratitude - many of them are already posted on my site. Here is the latest: "Every time I watch your film, I heal." - from AZ Many women were able to recover their memory of ability to procreate, which they disowned due to social conditioning, and delivered naturally after all - by just watching my film.
There is an enormous request for this kind of information out there in the world and it would serve well to those unborn babies whose mothers are now getting ready for their elective surgeries, if they would have a chance to see what they are signing for and understand the beauty of natural birth in comparison.
It is not my intention to upset anyone. I can not stress enough how grateful I am for the doctors to be available when they are really needed! But how else can we convince women to at least try natural birth? There is plenty of information written and spoken, but the rates are climbing up and up! I actually overheard a woman scheduling her business lunch 3 days after her c-section! "I'll be fine!" she said.
It's not just my crazy idea that c-section is harmful for babies. There is 25 years of research in the field of pre-natal psychology that speaks volumes about it. You can find more on www.birthpsychology.com
I personally, don't have a preference. I mean, my preference is only one: to make my film most effective. And if the majority would vote for removing this scene, I'll remove it with no problem. At this point it looks like most of the people who wrote to me benefit from seeing it. But, may be those who did not appreciate it simply did not write.
Btw, I do have the shorter version already that does not show any of the controversial footage - cream de la cream, 25 min of the most beautiful, inspiring scenes. It's in the "Educational" version of the film. It doesn't have circumcision, c-section, ice-dipping, hippie scenes, nothing that might trigger someone.
I had a couple of complaints just about each of the scenes in my film. There were 3 raging letters demanding me to remove circumcision, calling me 'heretic', mocking up spiritual people;
2 letters calling me crazy for showing winter swimming, how dangerous it is, a few angry people upset that I was promoting a bunch of hippies... If I were to remove everything I was told I should remove, my film would be about 15 minutes long. But the thing is, they were all asking for different episodes to be removed. Each one of them said 'the rest of the film is awesome, but just this one scene..." naming yet another one”...
See what I mean? So, please, drop me a line – I want to do what will serve best.
13) 10. On a personal note:
(My personal soap opera. Feel free to skip!:)
I’m really glad the intensity of the last few months subsided… Whew!!!
I had a very difficult summer, but by mid September I’ve started feeling much lighter and now I’m good to go again!!!
It was building up for a couple of years, due to several factors:
- when my film was finally released 2 yrs ago, my father died and both my mother and my 16 yo daughter were diagnosed with the same life threatening condition…
- and so was I…
- my body started shifting into menopause – very disorienting experience…
- my film was rapidly expanding all over the world, my face being on the screens of 54 countries at the same time, viewed by millions of people, all of whom having strong emotional reaction of all kinds and projecting their feelings onto me…
- my traveling schedule intensifying and the computer workload growing by day…
- lack of sufficient help and support: this summer both of my assistants quit at the same time. Melissa was promoted on her other job and it became full time. Crystal moved to Hawaii. My nervous system had no concept of expansion at such rate and I definitely was not prepared to deal with such scale in the help manifesting department… My new assistant worked for 3 weeks, crushed my office computer and disappeared. All the data was gone beyond repair. Thank goodness, I at least had the old version of my address book in my personal laptop. Actually, I was getting a lot of help, for which I am eternally grateful, but it was a small fraction of what was really needed.
- social intensity and the obvious pre-election political uncertainty; plus my beloved Russia got involved into another war…
- economical pressure - I was too exhausted to work and bills were piling up; on top of it my DVD sales almost completely stopped. It turns out that my site was so outdated that if someone did not know me already, they had almost no way of finding me. My site was not coming up in the first 50 pages of search. And those who knew me had already owned my DVD.
- environmental disaster (my county in Northern California was burning with wild fires for 2 months, I was hiding in my house with air purifiers in every room, could not go outside, and people whose homes got burned to the ground were staying with me…
- I did reach out to about a dozen of people, but it was like a conspiracy in a bad dream, - they all tried to sign me up for their ‘exciting’ multi-level marketing ‘magic bullet’ and did not want to talk about anything else. All are upset with me now for not signing up. Sorry, guys… I got burnt a couple of times on multi-level market about 10 years ago and promised myself to not do that again.
- Etc, etc, etc………that’s what I mean by ‘it was building up…’
By the end of August I was in a pretty bad shape… My world seemed to fall apart… My body was freaking out – I think it’s the very first time I stayed alive long enough to reach the ripe age of menopause and managed not to get burned at the stake, as usual…
So, how in the world do you deal with this kind of ambush? In Mayan astrology I am a planetary warrior, I know how to fight big fights, done plenty of those where I came from - I am a soldier breed from Siberia, always speaking up my mind… When I finished my film, I was ready to deal with the medical mafia. But none of that! My biggest supporters now are doctors. Go figure! They are grateful for the opportunity to see what normal birth looks like. What a relief! - Happy to help!
This time demons were the inside job – challenge came from where I’ve expected it the least - from my own reliable, comfortable, always healthy body and my friends and family… Go figure!
But, life goes on, isn’t it? And it’s the only sure thing about it.
With or without us, it does… And if we are smart and lucky, we get to play here a little longer!
So, I’ve adjusted. We had our surgeries a month apart, which was a remarkable experience. It was so humbling and healing to receive help in no uncertain terms, - the nurses were attentive and motherly, doctors cofident and skillful. Everything went well and healing happened very fast.
Recently, I’ve started taking small doses of 5HTP (amino acid, a building block of serotonin) on top of all the good supplements I have always taken. And it seems to be the missing piece of the puzzle. I knew about 5HTP, tried it before – it didn’t do me any good. I guess, my natural high was sufficient and I had no need in this supplement. One day I was organizing my vitamin drawer and found the jar that I did not finish back then and almost automatically put one capsule into my mouth (50mg). It was almost instant “BOING!” – all the colors came back! Wow!
I’m writing this just in case it might be an answer to someone else’s prayer. As I said, previously it didn’t do me any good, so I’m not promising anything – I am just describing what helped me. I do feel like myself again.
The whole time, my boyfriend of the last 3 years, Gary, was the steady, reliable, unwaveringly loving and kind presence. Through the whole ordeal, he managed to see me as the same vivacious, perky chick he fell in love with and never lost his patience no matter how impossible I was… I really don’t know how he did it… Thank you, Gary!
Thank you, God/dess!
14) Back to business!
I am constantly asked for referrals ‘do you know anyone in my area?’ kind, to most of which I reply: “so sorry, no…” And now I am extending my invitation to all of you who would like to let me know of their availability. I’ll make up the list of referrals. Right now I have a request for a Chinese speaking midwife or doula in the SF Bay Area. Anyone?
International version with 7 languages is in my hands!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
English, Spanish, Portuguese, German, French, Polish, Italian. Ta-da!!!!!!
Sending it to print as soon as Skyler finishes the cover artwork.
Polish Version is now Available here: http://www.shantala.pl/
16) Here is what I got in the mail today. I think it’s important for us to come together on this:
PLEASE HELP BIRTH CENTERS
Birth centers are in jeopardy of closing due to an impending change in Medicaid policy. Birth centers have been recognized since 1987. Recently, however CMS has directed its regional offices to stop federal payments to any state for birth center services in Alaska, South Carolina, Texas, and Washington State, and other states WILL follow! This action puts pregnant women at risk of losing access to safe, high quality maternity care!
Please Act Now!
Each of you CAN take action to put birth centers on the Congressional radar. The birth community must take the lead on this--Congress won't take any action for us unless it hears from its constituents. AABC's lobbyist Karen Fennell is busy making Congressional visits, but they are saying they have not heard from you--so it must not be important . . .
Right now, Rep. Susan Davis (CA) will sponsor the bill and Rep. Lois Capps (CA) will co-sponsor, but we need many more--including Republicans so it has bi-partisan support.
Call your Representatives and Senators!
And Representatives – http://www.house.gov/
The American College of Nurse-Midwives also has a tool on their website -
Tell them that birth centers are a needed service, and deserve to receive reimbursement! Other birth centers have already closed due to lack of facility reimbursement.
On the House side, ask Democrats to co-sponsor our bill which would add Birth Centers to Medicaid covered services. (Our bill does not have a number yet).
Ask House Republicans to be a sponsor or lead. On the Senate side, we need leads and sponsors in both parties.
Provide her with the representative's name, the staff person's name, and any questions or information she should be aware of.
This is urgent if we want to sustain birth centers in the United States.
Please call today. Remember, this is important to the survival of ALL birth
centers we are working for--we need 50 calls this week! Please also pass this on to anyone you know who has had or would like to have a baby in a birth center! Thank you for your support!
Well, here it is! Thank you for your time and attention! Till we meet again,
In Love and Service,
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